Last Tuesday, I had trouble sleeping. I actually got out of bed at 4:30 in the morning and took a shower because I couldn't lie in bed trying to sleep any longer. As if that wasn't sign enough that I was stressed out, the next day my left eye started twitching. Stress that my mind is not acknowledging makes my eyes dance for some reason.
So I tried to figure out what had made me so hot and bothered. I really couldn't think of anything. Then I remembered that in my insomnia haze, all I could think about was my writing. What if I didn't get my essay done on time (ie my own personal deadline)? What if I didn't get my new story done in time for my MFA submission? Would I ever work on my thesis?
I didn't write much over Thanksgiving, though I did think about my new story and my essay quite a bit. I still don't feel relaxed. So, here's what I'm going to do: I'm taking December off. You heard me. Off. Not off off as in I won't write (that would be silly!) but off as in no personal deadline-setting. I'll get my Dec. 4th submission out, and then I'll write only when I feel like it, no pressure allowed.
Hell, I'll have enough of a deadline with my many outstanding Christmas knitting projects.
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Good plan. I am berating myself for having writting NOTHING, yes NOTHING (other than morning pages and blog entries), since the November submission. I did, however, finish a shawl. Can we agree to be satisfied with whatever we do, even if in our twisted, overachieving minds it's not enough?
Deal!
This is a great idea, Bug. Seems like you've really been pushing yourself, and there's no need to be fretting about the thing that you're most passionate about.
Enjoy the holidays.
Congratulations on not setting any deadlines! (I was beginning to think that you weren't human.) Maybe I'll give myself some deadlines for a change since I won't be working.
Yep, that's a great idea. You've written a lot over the past few months and trying to maintain any kind of deadline during the holiday season is difficult.
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