Saturday, April 21, 2007

My problem

Part of my problem (see previous post about exhaustion) is that I rebel against myself in the silliest of ways. I know that having a set routine will help me feel less overwhelmed. I know that getting up early, at the same time each morning and doing my morning pages and then meditating before taking Chloe out really helps me get focused. But part of me hates the idea of being so rigid, of making myself do things when I really don't want to. In the same way, my teenage self loves not worrying about making a mess, leaving her clothes in piles in the bathroom or on the bedroom floor, even though the rest of me knows that it makes no sense to do so since I'll eventually have to to pick them up anyway, and in the meantime the mess will stress me out.

So, starting tomorrow, I will set an alarm and actually get out of bed when it goes off. I'll drink my (decaf) coffee while writing and then give myself some meditation time. I'll do this for 7 days. If at the end of those 7 days I don't think the routine is helping me feel more in control, I'll be allowed to revert back to sleeping in and getting ready for work like a mad woman. (Being neater will have to wait. One thing at a time!) Best Blogger Tips


bostonerin said...

I'm also a routine rebel, Bug, so I'm intruiged by your experiment. It's hard to make ourselves do things, especially when going against our nature.

I wish you the best, and if it works for you this week, I'm going to do it next week

DJPare said...

Revert! Revert! How productive or fun can it be, especially the meditation, if it even remotely feels forced...

Okay, I'm biased. I just can't stand rigid schedules!

Good luck.

Revert! Revert! :)

TI said...

You raise a really good point, Bug, about routine vs. no routine. It's probably possible to be too rigid, but a little structure usually makes me feel better. I've also let the early morning work slide lately. Starting tomorrow, I'm going to join you in the 7-day experiment, aiming for one hour of work before meditation. Thanks for the reminder.